Every time I start a new job, it brings nightmares. Nightmares that I can still remember and can easily picture in my mind. Now, I have not gotten a new job. Still furloughed. But in the good news department, I did just start a little consulting gig to supplement my unemployment. So, huzzah for that. But, yes, the nightmares returned.
All last night I had nightmares about this new project I am working on. I would wake up, try and quiet my brain, and fall asleep into the same nightmare that basically revolved around my trying and failing over and over again to solve the problem, to be successful. It sucked. I am a bit of a wreck today.
As some may know, my career revolves around data development, databases, designing and building data warehouses, and solving business problems with data. Whenever I have started a new job in this field I have always had nightmares about trying to solve real-world problems through SQL queries. It always turns into an endless loop of failure and frustration because real-world problems don’t have databases to query.
The first new job nightmare I remember having was when I started working for the Transportation Security Administration as a security screener at the airport, oh so many years ago. The neighborhood I grew up in decided to throw me a party to celebrate my new job. It was a backyard barbecue.
As part of the festivities, they decided to set up a metal detector that guests would have to walk through to get to the party. See, I could show off my new skills as an airport screener as people came in. What fun! It is shocking this trend has not taken off.
The party dissolved into me just pissing people off by telling them they couldn’t bring this or that prohibited item into the party.
I guess at the very least, these nightmares just show that I do care, right? That I want to succeed and not let people down?
I don’t know.
Glad to be doing a little consulting, though. Pissed, but not surprised, that it brought the nightmares along for the ride.